Friday, February 27, 2009
The hardest place to be is the middle.
I'm in the middle of everything.
Family..friends..ballet..YFC..
What sucks about it is that I don't take sides
but they judge me and think I do
and they end up trying to push me away from them
while I'm trying to balance on this tiny dot in..guess where?.. the middle.
They have a row of dots that make up their side.
I only have one middle. One midpoint. One center.
And I have nowhere else to go.
I want to scream out but I can't
because it's my sacrifice, my choice to be there.
I can't force the 2 endpoints to look at me and meet me in the middle.
That's too selfish of me.
I'll just struggle to keep the line straight
and to try to pull the 2 ends closer.
I'm not exactly the world's strongest person here.
Of all people, YOU GUYS should know that.
One day, I'll crack too, you know.
I'm just more used to keeping it in,
to sucking it in,
to putting on a smile,
and just leaving everything behind me.
I try to help, but to no avail.
Ergo, me being useless.
Ang dami ko pang gustong sabihin but a blog entry is not the way to let it out. Bastos nun for me. I had to erase a lot of what I actually typed. Let's save it for the right time.
iMiss
iLove
iNeed
iCry
iHide
iSmile
iSuffer
iTry
iFail
iScream
iCurse
iPray
iForget
iForgive
iTalk
iStruggle
iFeel
iCare
iPray
iLeave (I pray not.)
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