Sunday, November 16, 2008
I'm feeling...emo. I don't know why. Maybe because I have a friend who's drifting apart. I regret ever saying those things. That changed everything. Nagkaroon tuloy siya ng imaginary friend. I hate that 'friend' by the way.
Maybe because I'm starting to feel the senior blues. I'm going to miss these brick walls and all the teachers I've actually learned to love. Maybe it's the realization that it's the last chance I have to show these people how much they've helped me throughout my whole life.
Maybe I just miss talking to my friends..
Maybe I feel like crying because I'm filled with joy because of all His blessings..
Maybe I feel like crying because I'm so grateful for all my friends. [stupid write ups are making me feel sentimental..can't wait for palancas!]
Maybe I'm scared that we'll all drift apart after some time..
Maybe I feel pressured with this Music composition plus the write ups plus the Physics quiz (which I still have to study for) plus Chorale (I haven't memorized Sifuni Mungu) plus Green Team (I have a lot of absences) plus..plusplusplus...dadagdag pa yan for sure.
Maybe it's because I was hit with the realization that this 'thing' may be the right thing but at the wrong time. Pinahihintay ko nga pero wala rin naman kalalabasan yun.
Maybe it's the feeling that I'm clinging on to one but longing for the other.
Maybe it's the jealousy that I'm not the only sister..
Maybe I'm just emotional.
Maybe it's a mix of all.
Maybemaybemaybe...
I hate the word "maybe".
6:32 AM
