Let's see who regularly checks my blog. If you've read this post, IM me or text me saying "Dude you blogged! :-O" LOL sorry... I'm procrastinating so much. Exams are already on Wednesday and Health exam's on Tuesday so I'm pretty much dead if I don't start studying soon. Anyway, I don't know why but I've felt so numb, lazy, and dead during third quarter. Tingnan mo nga ngayon, wala akong ginagawa eh. My grades plumetted pa naman. Shit. A LOT of things have happened since my last post. Isa left (yeah, you suck you bitch. haha jk), I finally have a prom dress (yay! :D)....actually there are more. I just don't remember them.

Since I'm pretty confident my mom doesn't read this, I will admit here (ONLY HERE) that I really do miss dancing ballet. I only realized now that I really did love dancing it and that the people in the school were not the reason I wanted to stay there. I still don't want to go to any other school but TEAM bec only T. Eli knows what's really good for me. Kahapon kasi we were going to Carmen Lazaro Couture, which was where I'm making pagawa my dress, and we passed a Capezio store. THE POINTE SHOES WERE ON SALE. Shit. I really really really miss being able to do multiple turns, to jump high, to be carried in partnering, to dance with a partner, TO DANCE JAZZ...I actually even miss the technique! I hate practicing and perfecting my technique but it's the only way I get better, which is why I end up enjoying it too. Angbiglaan ng ballet na to. I'm listening kasi to classical music para makaaral ng mabuti then I passed Capezio pa yesterday tapos Mama kept asking about Ballet. So why won't I just go back? It's because I'm scared and ashamed. I used to be good but once I take class with them I'm gonna looks so bad cuz I'm so out of shape. I miss being competitive with dance. Yes I admit, I'm very very competitive when it comes to this. Well I also like singing but it's not as satisfying as dance. Through dance I am able to express ALL MY FEELINGS. That's how I get my annoyance out. I can't use Voice kasi I end up crying or I lose control of my voice. My emotions are the ones that encourage or strengthen my passion for dance. Naks. Hahahahahahaha Anyways, I'm pretty sure sina BC are bored now. Sorry, I just really want to dance na. Cheerdancing isn't enough to compensate for it kasi. I might take ballroom nga and street dance sa summer but I really do want to start dancing ballet again. The schedule kasi is so demanding. I don't know if I can balance it with senior life. I don't know if I'm willing to take the risk. Anyway, enough with that. I don't want to think about it. I just want to do it. :( My posture sucks, my technique is gone, my turn out has disappeared and I barely had any of that before, I'm gaining so much weight, my body is so out of shape, I can't do good extensions, I can't turn as much as before, my stomach is so weak right now that I'm sure I won't be able to balance that well anymore, my port de bras sucks...Dang. That's why I'm so scared to go back. Anyway....



Since he doesn't read this naman, I won't be sensoring his name anymore.


Anyways, I have to study for the long quiz in Philo tom and continue studying for health. Dang if I didn't procrastinate I'm probably done with Philo now. Puta naman. I HATE SCHOOL DAMMIT!

I hope we enjoy prom. I hope green team wins, kahit second place lang,payag na ko. I have to meet up with Ralph pa nga pala. Oh well..


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