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Friday, October 22, 2010

Move On Lyrics

(whooo whoooo)

How do I end up in the same old place,
faced again with the same mistakes,
so stubborn thinkin I know what is right,
but life proves me wrong everytime,
takin roads that lead me nowhere,
how do I expect to get there,
but when will I learn to just put you first.
(Sometimes I want to be put first. No matter how selfish it sounds, sometimes I just need that.)

(Chorus)
I come to you now when I need you,
but why do I wait to come see you,
I always try to do this on my own but I was wrong cause only with you can I move on. Can I move on.
(I should really stop hoping that you're a mind reader, that we're so connected that you'll practically feel what I feel and just understand me without any words.)

(oh)

When I awake it's you that makes
me strong,
and I know that you've been with me all along,
so many times I begin to close my eyes and listen to my heart,
with you life is so easy why do I
make it hard,
(Why? Why do I always end up making simple things so complicated? I HATE being so EMOTIONAL. I don't do it on purpose. I just end up being like this. I try to control it, I promise you. I hope sometimes you just accept those times and comfort me without pointing out how shallow I am.)
oh takin roads that lead me nowhere how do I expect to get there when will I Learn to just put you first.

(hey!)
(Chorus)
I come to you now when I need you,
but why do I wait to come see you,
I always try to do this on my own but I was wrong cause only with you can I move on.

I get out of my own way, let you have your way.
Cause I realize Im no good on my own,
I'm there for you,
(Are you? Not as much as I wish you could be..)
I'll sell for you
I can't live without you. Noooo

(Chorus)
I come to you now when I need you, why do I wait to come see you,
I always try to do this on my own but I was wrong, I was wrong, I was wrong. With only you, only you, with only you. Can I move on, can I move on, can I move on,

You said, "You're getting harder and harder to talk to." and I said, "Do you even try?"
You replied and asked me, "What do you think?"

I think that you do try but I guess that wasn't enough for me. I'm sorry for expecting so much from you when I should've expected less. I set my standards too high I should not have done that. I admit now though, that I have been keeping things to my self. "I always try to do this on my own but I was wrong." I didn't want to tell you how awful my day was yesterday. I didn't want to tell you how angry I was at you because you were blaming me for not convincing you well enough to come home with me to Alabang. I was angry because you didn't save me when I was lost in the middle of the highway. (Shut up I know it's stupid to get angry over something that isn't your fault.) I was angry because you didn't seem like you gave a crap about me. I know you probably had enough trust in me lang, that I'll find my way out of my predicament. I was angry because you didn't even ask me today how I was feeling, how my coughs are. Because you didn't come here when I was looking forward to your comforting hug. Because you weren't there for me. After the initial anger, I felt awful about my irrationality. I didn't want to tell you how angry I was at you. I didn't want to tell you about all the awful things because they aren't as awful in your eyes and you'll think I'm just emoting too much. Then you'll just tell me again to MOVE ON. I'm sorry if I can't MOVE ON as easily as you can.

I can go on and on but I won't. That's not what I replied though. I said, "I guess you do. Sorry."

I hate you for not understanding me fully.

1:56 AM

Thursday, May 27, 2010

I remember not telling this person about this blog, but deep inside I'm hoping I did because I know I want it to be read by the said person. Unfortunately, I'm pretty sure I didn't tell said person about this.

It's crazy how long we haven't talked, and although we only formed this tight friendship in how many months, I think it was building up 3 years ago when I first met you. Very slowly, might I add. What's crazier is how much I missed and miss you. I once told Ana that losing our friendship was like losing my friendship to her, but I take that back. You're more of an older sibling to me. Zruh O last eay, O stintud ta zahdun zrit eay nuille zunu ta mu cahsodunohg raz bid O wult ihd raz dupnussud O bucimu. O stintud ta daybt zrit O rid ihd stintud ta zahdun zrit O cayld'fu rid. O ritud trit O wult trit zie sa O pysrud tru wuulohg izie. Despite that, I never stopped missing you. It didn't hurt when I saw you two, mostly I think because I had my own love and because I've long accepted your moving on. It saddened me though that I didn't know anything about her when normally, you would've told me about her. I may not be the first to know(usually), but during the olden days, you'd surely tell me. You were are the perfect gentleman, perfect friend, perfect brother. It was hard losing that.

Lately though, we've been talking. Err texting rather, and it brought back the past. I was momentarily happy. It was pretty shortlived. When everyone left, including you, I still couldn't erase the fact that things will never be the same again. Even if I'm slowly trying to bring it back, I don't think it will ever be back. That's what made me cry. The last time I felt this horrible was when Ana and I were fighting, but that eventually got fixed so the pain was as shortlived as that momentary happiness. This time, it's longer. It's less painful now, but it still is. I wish I knew how to eliminate it completely but I don't think I ever will for reasons I don't want to displace here. (I hope I used the word displaced right. HAHA.)

Anyway, I'm happy you're happy. I know it's the most cliche line ever but you gotta admit that there's truth in there, that it's actually completely honest. I am so happy and glad that you're finally happy as a bee. HAHAHA.

Fned mosgm um dned tiib urmuti, U ferdit dy pi fudn ayo piseomi U grif ayo't dhied li hiecca ficc. U'l ryd meaurk dned U'l ryd dhiedit ficc ryf pod U dnurg ayo fyoct'ji piir e khied, ry, EFIMYLI ed piurk dni yri (fnusn um ecmy piurk ayohmicv), fnidnih vyh li yh vyh erayri icmi. La lyl cyjim ayo dni fea mni cyjim Cersi, ert U serryd mdyb fyrtihurk nyf dnurkm fyoct'ji piir uv ayo fihi 'nul'. Ud'm nyhhupci dned mylidulim U dnurg ud fucc pi piddih. Ud'm my efvoc dned ayo mylinyf legi li tyopd dni bhimird. Ud umr'd ayoh veocd, U gryf. Pod ayo kid la byurd. :)) Mshif dnum. U hiecca neji dy mdyb dnurgurk epyod dnum. :|



PS. This is the 3rd letter I wrote to you, I think. The second one I gave to you. The first and the third, which is this one, I don't plan on showing, even if I said I hope you secretly see it. HAHA.


I love my friends. It's not connected at all, but I just wanted to say it. :)

11:29 AM

Friday, April 30, 2010

I ABSOLUTELY HATE BEING A JEALOUS BITCH. It never fails to fire me up. Like now.

I also think I'm half pregnant. :| I've been eating so much during the past few days and I'm so emotional right now. And I feel fat.


SCREW YOU. I trust you but you seriously have to understand why I'm feeling this way.

9:20 AM

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Checklist:
  1. COMPANA lec report on sharks
  2. Fix INTSOCI surveys and graphs
  3. Fix FILKOMU surveys
  4. Study for COMPANA lec long exam (which is TOMORROW)
  5. Prepare for INTSOCI report (considered as finals)
  6. Make another CWTS compilation for the community
  7. Have Buklod Tao tarps done
  8. Make another tarp for Buklod Tao (logo, contact details, etc.)
  9. Cry
  10. Cry
  11. Cry
  12. Die
It's 10:29am. Wow how ironic. Why do you think that way you- ? Why don't you know that I need you?

Sudran avv ec ed paddan du ryja cdyoat ymuha?

7:26 PM

Sunday, January 03, 2010

Another must watch! It never fails to make my day. :))


7:24 AM